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Death didn’t want me


 Last year August 30th . . Danny and I decided to watch a movie. So I was shifting on the bed to get  comfortable and I what I thought at the time was a pulled muscle in my left upper leg. That was short lived when the lower part of my leg started hurting. Danny and I tried everything from heating pad, pain meds, hot bath and walking it offer. Wasnt til I noticed the redness on my leg and got danny and his dad to take me to the Er. So he helped me up the steps. While he was talking to Lee (dannys dad) i threw up. 

At the hospital sucked. I could only have two care people to visit me due to covid.  The front royal hospital is what it is. I almost dies there. My leg wasnt getting better and I started with blisters up and down my leg. At sone point  i was transferred to Winchester  Medical center.   Had emergency surgery. I remember for me to send a simple “good morning “ text i felt like I had just ran a marathon (and this girl doesn’t run). 

At that point i am not sure i cared if they took my leg. Now i am glad they did not. It was a rough 6 months but I got through it. )one of the songs i will be posting in the other blog is called “unleash the beast. I recommend listening to that songs. Its a  perfect song. 

Today i am doing well completely healed d up and out side of my looking like its been through a grinder i am much back to my self.

I do have a new outlook on life and what i used to tolerate i no longer do.

Thats it for  this post! 


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