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hello Grandma

​how are you?  Asking me how i am is probably not the best.  Furball past away the 4 of this month. I only had him for two weeks. It wasnt long enough.  But as a friend said. This very well could have been a lesson that i had to learn.  I think that lesson is that i cannot control everything around me.  It would seem Death didnt want to deal with me or dad. Dont get me wrong. I am grateful and I know that my job isnt over yet. 


I handled your death, Grandpa and even kings death. I handled Uncle bobs  and Aunt JoAnns death. Bit this animals pass hit hard. To the point that I a bad ass bitch that is strong willed had to finally break down and ask for help and guidance which i did get. I am doing better now. 


I have made some really good sets on resin and i am improving daily. I made a memorial deco tonight. I dont know why or what made me put the rose  in and leave it as it was. Nothing else looked good. 


It screams out your name. Dannys mom wants to buy it from me. I have this feeling that I should keep it.  Maybe because it reminds me of you. 


I will make more and I probably could recreate it. I will know more when i wake up. 

Yesterday was Dannys Birthday . I am thanking god all the time for him. We are getting along great and We are still going strong. 


I am trying to sell my works. I have tons of keychains. If its going to be nice later today I may put my stuff outside and take some really good pictures. 


I should go. I love and miss you 

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